One of my favorite things to teach about is the sovereignty of God. I remember - as a freshman in college - when it slowly dawned on me the implications of God's sovereignty. At first, I was upset ("That can't be!"). Then I was confused ("But that means..."); Finally, I rejoiced in it ("This is amazing!").
For the rest of my college career - I was a Calvinist recruiter... attempting to convert every Arminian to the wonderful beauty of God's sovereignty over our depravity. I was functioning as a hyper-Calvinist (see previous post on that topic HERE) during my college years.
As I look back at those years, I wonder if I often excused my lack of passionate evangelism on God's sovereignty - and felt theologically superior in doing so. Once I became a youth pastor, I still equally enjoyed and taught the sovereignty of God as I did when I first discovered it, but that teaching began to be balanced with human responsibility. It is only recently that my passion for lost people has begun to bring accusations that I'm not trusting in God's sovereignty enough.
That is why Nehemiah 4:9 means a lot to me these days: "We prayed to our God and posted a guard day and night to meet this threat."
God is absolutely and totally sovereign, and we must take reasonable steps of responsibility. And if that seems theologically confusing - then it probably is just about right. Because if we have God's sovereignty "all figured out" perhaps He isn't as transcendent as we think.
For me, I will continue to live in the confusion of knowing He is totally and completely sovereign, and I will continue to do all I can to "win as many as possible."